Not to expose your true feelings to an adult seems to be instinctive from the age of seven or eight onwards

I really prefer to not discuss feelings. Not prematurely at least.

I strongly believe that since "feelings" are something we FEEL,  we should display it through our actions.  that way the other person can FEEL it as well. I could easily tell you I "feel" anything, but if my actions don't match my words, it's too simple to say I have "deceived" you. I'm not one for deception.

Now, there is a time of course where you do have that simple talk to analyze your feelings with someone just to ensure your on the same page. It is somewhat mandatory depending on what your situation may be. I just don't care to discuss it too soon, or too often. Mainly, because half the time I don't believe we as people know exactly what we feel && trying to put emotion into words may be one of the most complex things the human mind can attempt to accomplish. Not to mention if your conveying of it falls too short or too heavy of what it really is, OR if the other person interprets it differently.  Individuals appear to be afraid to be on a different level emotionally than the person they are involved with. It's almost as if it suddenly becomes a power struggle. && you are no longer on the same team trying to enjoy each other. Your main focus is now to get someone to feel a certain way (more or less) for you. It's a downhill spiral from there.

Just think it doesn't need to be discussed unless it REALLY needs to be discussed.

& when it does, you better be damn accurate.

Idk maybe this is one of those things you have to understand to understand.

I am a true alternative. And I love being the outcast. That's my role in life, to be an outcast

I'm an emotional outcast.

The way my emotions function are completely different from most females. I've always been this way and sometimes it's difficult, because I wish I had someone who I could relate to. Women are known as these emotional beings, who wear their heart on their sleeves, and do all this stereotypical ish in display of their feelings.

I don't fit that description.

I wasn't raised to where crying is acceptable. It didn't get anything accomplished. If something upset my father he G'd that ish up and handled it. Therefore, if something upsets me, I G it up and I handle it. It's all I know. I rarely cry. I don't really cry at all honestly. Especially now that I'm older.

I'm an emotional outcast.

When it comes to guys, I don't get super clingy attached and affected by everything he does. In fact, it takes a lot for me to really catch feelings for someone. I don't believe in tossing the word "like" around easily either. I don't crush a lot. I don't feel the need to always have a male in my life. When I do he's pretty free, if he says he's gonna call and he doesn't. I don't get upset. If something petty happens it's usually overlooked because it's not a big deal for me to be salty over. If I don't have a guy in my life, I'm not bitter. I'm not jealous of my friends who do either. I actually never really get lonely.

I'm an emotional outcast.

I wish I had other female friends who were like this. Sometimes I feel as though maybe somethings wrong with me. lol. No but seriously. I wonder if I'm the one thats broken because I'm not really that emotional and sensitive? Don't get me wrong, when I do develop feelings for someone they are legit and cute and wtfever the situation may be. I'm just not the way other girls are. That usual "girlie" type reaction to their emotions. It makes it hard for me in my friendships because they don't really fully understand how certain things that would CLEARLY upset them, doesn't bother me at all. It also leaves me not having anyone to talk to sometimes because they don't quite understand. && often with them, I don't understand.

I'm an emotional outcast.

Although, this does have it's "lone star" side to it. I find it also very beneficial. I'm rare. A lot of guys seem to gravitate to me, and really appreciate that I am the way that I am, they consider it a breath of fresh air after dealing with over-emotional women. This isn't always on a "tryna pursue me" type of level. At times they just want to talk and vent and make sure that as a guy they aren't the one that's in the wrong. I guess it makes me easier to talk to and be around? I'm not sure. I enjoy being alternative.

eh..

I'm an emotional outcast..& maybe thats my role.

I don't believe in depriving myself of any food or being imprisoned by a diet.

I'm a little person.

Not as in a short little person.

I'm a slender lady. 

I'd take any term besides skinny / bony or frail. 

And with me being small, (genetically) I enjoy to eat. I eat a lot. I think about food a lot, and I love to cook.

but I HATE, despise & loathe..anything fat free, sugar free, reduced fat, 1% fat, 2% fat etc.

This past month I've been staying with my Grandparents until it's time for me to go home and the house is FULL of that stuff. Which is understandable, they are older people &  have to watch their sugars and fats. So when I finally got the opportunity to go food shopping for MYSELF. I only return home to discover that I have accidentally purchased Reduced fat oreos, light ice cream, & sugar free pudding.

WTF. WHY DOES THAT EVEN EXIST?!

WHY? 

I know it may appear as though I'm over reacting and that it's not that serious, but it is. I've never quite understood the whole "making fatty foods easier thing". I'm not saying this because I'm small and I don't understand "Bigger Struggles" I'm saying it because it's just pointless. If someone is looking to keep their fats and sugars down they shouldn't eat fatty sugary food. The End. && If they do, then go hard with that shxt. eff it. I feel if you are a person who is trying to monitor your weight and you eat healthy regularly, workout frequently...you should be able to enjoy some regular damn ice cream && it won't kill you. Everyone knows this. Especially since I'm going into the field of medicine I'm aware that a cupcake won't kill you if you are serious about eating correctly in your daily routine.  NOW. when your trying to go the other way and say "your on a diet" but you just fill up your fridge with the same stuff I do..but justify it because it has "reduced fat, low sugar etc. etc" your cheating. && your pissing me off. I don't care how others balance their diets.

But I'm not on one. When I go buy ice cream, I shouldn't have to check to make sure it's regular. That shouldn't be a rare thing to find for me. 

Does this post make me an insensitive "Skinny Bitch"?

Maybe.

Do I give a fuxk?..nah not at all.

Is there anyone so wise as to learn by the experience of others?

Lately, (as usual) a few of my friends have called me with their problems that they have either wanted to vent about or were seeking advice for. *deep sigh* I don't like becoming too involved in my friends situations because when they seek advice and I give it, they don't listen anyway..and it comes back to bite them in the ass. It takes a lot to not say "I told you so". I don't speak out of my ass. I don't just randomly provide advice for situations I haven't been through. Some things in life really are black & white. It takes for you to watch plenty of other people go through the same routine to understand that over & over that particular situation has & will always end the SAME WAY. When I was younger I realized that if i can be wise enough to learn from the mistakes of those around me, I'd probably save myself a lot of time, tears and money. lol. Others don't think that way. Yes, experience is the best teacher, but don't put yourself through bullshit if you don't have to. ESPECIALLY when you know when those around you are advising you correctly but you prefer to be hardheaded. In defense of those who do choose to go that route I have to say...I was allowed to make my own stupid mistakes, you should be granted that same opportunity. Naturally, I'm protective of those that I love, I don't want anyone to hurt them...but I can't give them the strength I developed from experience either. They must obtain their own...